Well I heard about this place and thought I would give it a try. I have had depression on and off for the last six years. Im 20 years old and never even been on a date. Im in my sophmore year in university and I feel like life is starting to pass me by now. I find my self thinking about suicide more often now. Even when Im among friends sometimes I start to think about it. I know I cant do it just because of what it would do to my family. I love them too much. I dont know what it is that makes me feel so sad. I think its partially the fact that I think I will be spending my life alone. Im afraid to tell anyone about it as I am working towards a military career and any history of these types of thoughts can ruin that. Im also afraid that my friends will think Im nuts and not like me any more. Even if I wanted to talk to any of them about it, I would have no idea how to bring it up. Im not sure what Im asking I just want to tell someone how I feel. Sorry for making you read that.