Hey, I'm new to this site. I am at probably the worst i've ever felt. I have a 3 year old son, and he is the only thing that keeps me going. But sometimes it doesn't seem enough and i wonder if he would be better off with someone else anyway. I can't stand myself, i make myself sick and i really just don't want to be here anymore. I am a violent, angry person and i don't want to be. I have only truly tried to commit suicide once before (everything else is just self harm), but was caught. And i know in myself that if i hadnt been caught, i wouldnt be alive right now, it was that close. Which used to make me happy (knowing i could of died, but didn't), but lately i've been getting depressed again, and i think about hurting myself everyday. I want to be here for my son but i can't deal with life. I just wish i could learn to love myself. My partner is also totally unsupportive. If i self harm i just get called a loser..I hate feeling angry all the time Fix/help me? Please.