My fiancée and I have had the mother of all rows tonight and afterwards he told me he didn't love me any more... a little while later I asked him again and he said he didn't know. That his head was messed up and he couldn't answer me.
He's taken the dog out for a walk now to clear his head and think things through, im just terrified that he's going to come home and say that he doesn't love me any more for definite.
I love him so much and am so scared of losing him, I don't know what I would do without him.
I am agoraphobic which puts a lot of stress on both of us, I moved up here in November, 150 miles away from my friends and family to be with him. If we split up I have nothing to go back to, I will have no where to live, nothing. I love him so much. I just can't find the words to say it to him right now when I don't know how he feels about me.
We've been together just over a year now and in all that time I have managed not to self harm. It was a huge problem for me for years and since being with him I have managed to stop doing it and not relapse. Now I feel like I am close to relapsing and I feel like I don't want to live without him.
I'm terrified that I am going to lose him and that if I do I will have no where to go and will end up on the streets, which being agoraphobic is the worst possible thing.
I thought I would never need this site again, I really thought I was sorting things out. Admittedly my problems have gotten worse considering my Social Phobia has progressed into Agoraphobia, but other than that I have had a handle on things.
I have so many thoughts in my head, I just needed to get them out and maybe someone will say something that helps me put things into perspective.
I know I should just tell him I love him and that I'm sorry for the argument and that I still want to be with him, but I cannot bring myself to do it while there is a chance that he will turn around and say he no longer loves me.
I really have no idea what I will do without him. I can't go home, none of them know about the Agoraphobia, and they were never very understanding about the social phobia so I can't see them accepting this. I can't stay here as I don't know anyone. I literally have nothing without him. I'm scared of what I will do if I lose him.
He's taken the dog out for a walk now to clear his head and think things through, im just terrified that he's going to come home and say that he doesn't love me any more for definite.
I love him so much and am so scared of losing him, I don't know what I would do without him.
I am agoraphobic which puts a lot of stress on both of us, I moved up here in November, 150 miles away from my friends and family to be with him. If we split up I have nothing to go back to, I will have no where to live, nothing. I love him so much. I just can't find the words to say it to him right now when I don't know how he feels about me.
We've been together just over a year now and in all that time I have managed not to self harm. It was a huge problem for me for years and since being with him I have managed to stop doing it and not relapse. Now I feel like I am close to relapsing and I feel like I don't want to live without him.
I'm terrified that I am going to lose him and that if I do I will have no where to go and will end up on the streets, which being agoraphobic is the worst possible thing.
I thought I would never need this site again, I really thought I was sorting things out. Admittedly my problems have gotten worse considering my Social Phobia has progressed into Agoraphobia, but other than that I have had a handle on things.
I have so many thoughts in my head, I just needed to get them out and maybe someone will say something that helps me put things into perspective.
I know I should just tell him I love him and that I'm sorry for the argument and that I still want to be with him, but I cannot bring myself to do it while there is a chance that he will turn around and say he no longer loves me.
I really have no idea what I will do without him. I can't go home, none of them know about the Agoraphobia, and they were never very understanding about the social phobia so I can't see them accepting this. I can't stay here as I don't know anyone. I literally have nothing without him. I'm scared of what I will do if I lose him.
