I felt like I had been doing better. I got my own place and I just, I was feeling more secure and confident in life or whatever but this past month I've been feeling like I've been going closer and closer to an edge. I'm back to self harming as much as I did when I was at my lowest and today I just snapped and I am sitting here, shaking, feeling so useless and ashamed and I just, I'm not sure I'm going to make it much longer, I just feel so.. alone right now. I just don't know what to do... I'm so ashamed.