I don't know what to say.

But I do know that I don't think I'll get through the night.

 

I feel the same......

 

Ester hun...I love you... Please don't do anything xx

I'm here for you always.

 

Ester,
i dont really know you,
but ive seen you around here.
form your posts i can tell you are truly a good person,
one i would like to get to know,
and someone this world needs.

if you want to talk, ill be around. message me, pm me, i have aim and msn.
:hug: hang in there, hon.

 

text me, call me, google me, msn me or even skype me if you wanna talk hun :hug:

 

:sad:

 

Yo hav my saport fiend. I love you

 

ester i love you so very much hunny.

I hope your ok im worried bout you

xxxxx

 

Thank you all for the messages and sorry to have worried you.
I am still not in the right frame of mind and I think I won't be for at least some more days, due to massive amounts of stress.
I'm trying to cope, but I notice myself falling into a pattern of drinking more again (since I vowed to myself not to smoke pot anymore). I've been sleeping extremely little again and my eating patterns have gone down the drain again.
Basically everything I worked so hard on achieving over the last few weeks and perhaps even months, has been shot down to the old unhealthy patterns again.

I'm struggling every day, the evenings and nights in particular, to get by.

I won't go into detail about what's making me feel and behave like this, but it's to do with several things, one of which being my job.. Or more like, the manager of the shop. We had a bit of an erhm.. argument today, again. And I've heard some things that do NOT make me happy.

Anyway I just got back from work and I'm too drained to actually talk about it all now. I'm sorry.

I'm trying to keep myself busy with all these appointments and birthdays and parties I've got, but as much as they do distract me, they wear me out as well.

The lack of sleep isn't exactly helping either

My apologies for the worrying, again. l'll try to think before I write next time.
:grouphug:

 

dont be sorry.
its good to post and get it out of your system
we all worry anyways about each other
:hug:
glad youre still around
here if you ever want to talk

 

ester :hug: you can i know you can.