I don't know what to say.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Sa Palomera, Apr 20, 2010.

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  1. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    But I do know that I don't think I'll get through the night.
     
  2. lbc213

    lbc213 Member

    I feel the same......
     
  3. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    Ester hun...I love you... Please don't do anything xx

    I'm here for you always.
     
  4. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    Ester,
    i dont really know you,
    but ive seen you around here.
    form your posts i can tell you are truly a good person,
    one i would like to get to know,
    and someone this world needs.

    if you want to talk, ill be around. message me, pm me, i have aim and msn.
    :hug: hang in there, hon.
     
  5. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    text me, call me, google me, msn me or even skype me if you wanna talk hun :hug:
     
  6. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

  7. ShermanFlynn

    ShermanFlynn Banned Member

    Yo hav my saport fiend. :) I love you
     
  8. xXxRNBxXx

    xXxRNBxXx Senior member

    ester i love you so very much hunny.

    I hope your ok :( im worried bout you

    xxxxx
     
  9. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    Thank you all for the messages and sorry to have worried you.
    I am still not in the right frame of mind and I think I won't be for at least some more days, due to massive amounts of stress.
    I'm trying to cope, but I notice myself falling into a pattern of drinking more again (since I vowed to myself not to smoke pot anymore). I've been sleeping extremely little again and my eating patterns have gone down the drain again.
    Basically everything I worked so hard on achieving over the last few weeks and perhaps even months, has been shot down to the old unhealthy patterns again.

    I'm struggling every day, the evenings and nights in particular, to get by.

    I won't go into detail about what's making me feel and behave like this, but it's to do with several things, one of which being my job.. Or more like, the manager of the shop. We had a bit of an erhm.. argument today, again. And I've heard some things that do NOT make me happy.

    Anyway I just got back from work and I'm too drained to actually talk about it all now. I'm sorry.

    I'm trying to keep myself busy with all these appointments and birthdays and parties I've got, but as much as they do distract me, they wear me out as well.

    The lack of sleep isn't exactly helping either :rolleyes:

    My apologies for the worrying, again. l'll try to think before I write next time.
    :grouphug:
     
  10. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    dont be sorry.
    its good to post and get it out of your system
    we all worry anyways about each other
    :hug:
    glad youre still around
    here if you ever want to talk
     
  11. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    ester :hug: you can i know you can.
     
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