I got back in touch with an old friend yesterday. I was so happy - we had a lot of special things together, things that were just for us. She was one of those special people, the ones you always remember because you feel like they changed your life for the better. I just finished replying to an email from her and it was so, so hard. All the time we spoke she would always complain about how much her husband and her relatives nagged her about her lack of faith, and now, she's turned born-again-Christian and I don't know what to do. I don't even know why I'm so upset. I feel like I've lost something that I'll never get back. I'm happy for her - she's turned her life around, and she's thanking God for it. I think that's what pains me the most. She was always so independent, so self-determined, I respected her. I still do respect her, and I do have Christian friends, the Christianity itself isn't what bothers me. I don't know. I'm not making any sense. All I know is I'm sitting here typing this and crying because it feels like one of my best friends just died.