Its like the smallest things set me on this downward spiral that I cannot control. I don't know if Im too hard on myself, and I've always been like that, but lately Im just so done with everything and I know that everyone will be better off if Im just gone. I hate this feeling, I hate feeling dumb and worthless and disgusting. And then all of the sudden sometimes I'll feel better about myself, and wonder why I ever had these awful thoughts but those periods are so short-lived. I don't know why this happens to me, and it always has for as long as I can remember. Hating yourself is an exhausting thing, I just want it to be over.