I have recently begun to have suicidal thoughts that seem to come from nowhere. I tried to take my own life when I was fourteen, but after therapy and the like, I began to feel better. Now at 22, I feel these feelings returning. I don't think these feelings come from not enjoying life. I do truly love to be alive and surrounded with living things, but I find that often time, things would be much easier for myself and others if I just wasn't here any more. I feel like I cause more trouble because of my various faults and the less than pleasing things that I've done in my past than anyone deserves to put up with. I'm trying to find forgiveness from myself and from others, but I feel like every time I get to that place, I am pushed right back down again. I don't want to feel like this... This creeping darkness that's always hovering over me. I don't know what to do... Can anyone out there shed light on this?