.. I was told time was supposed to help mend all wounds. Especially when you lose your love, and know they're so fucking happy with someone else. It's been at least 6 weeks, maybe more, I've lost count, but this is only getting fucking harder. I can't sleep and only have nightmares when I do, my friends aren't really helping much at all, I'm such a wreck. Crying everynight hopeing nobody hears, trying so hard to be happy for her, yet constantly wishing she was still mine. I've never felt so alone in my life.. and I have no idea how this is going to get any better. I know it's a bad thing, but I've gone way back to when I used to SH/SM and that's not exactly helping. I'm scared shitless that this isn't going to get any better. Is there anyone who has gone through all this and pulled through? I know you can't get over a loved one, not if you truly loved them, but does it indeed get any eaiser? Or do you have to get stronger? Don't worry on tips about Self Manipulation, I have them all. It's just gonna have to stay for a while to help me manage, I'll stop once I feel a little better.