My daughter died nearly 3 years ago, I have felt this longing to go and join her and made several attempts. Then lately I have been feeling happier, and starting to enjoy life again. I have finished counselling. Now her anniversary of her death is coming, I feel I want to join her again. We also had a guy at work recently kill himself whilst at work. Just confused at the moment. Unless you have lost someone you will not understand these feelings. I finished counselling today, and the counsellor was not real happy about it either and didn't even say good bye.