People often tell me that taking your own life is a selfish act. They say that It leaves a terrible legacy for the children, family, and friends left behind and that would be selfish. The lifetime of abuse I've been through is testament to the selfish acts of others. I don't consider the removal of oneself from a life of pain and anguish selfish. Was I just placed here then for other people to beat up, kick around, manipulate and fuck over? Then yes, I would imagine it would be selfish to remove myself from a world destined to inflict pain on me. If friends and family want to see me continue an anguished life of horror and relive all the terrible things other people can do to me, they are the ones being selfish! I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to have to face something else! Childhood abuse and ridicule from a mother, rape and repeated abuse from boyfriends and strangers, drug addiction and children who don't want you around calling you toxic, enemies posing as friends so they can fuck your abusive husband! I give up, I want no more of this! The situation I was born to set the foundation for a lifetime of therapy, counseling, group meetings, halfway houses, detoxes, abuse forums, etc., all so I can learn to live with what I had no control over. I don't want to learn to deal with it anymore and frankly I believe life asks for too much!! If I chose to be here then I choose not to be here anymore. It's not right to keep this crappy life going so other people won't feel bad about you leaving. Who would ask such a thing from another? A Selfish world!