I don't know why I feel like this.. well I kind of do.. I'm not thinking about the bad things that have been happening recently but I think sub conciously I am.. but Sub conciously is not good because I can't tell myself I'm being stupid because I don't know what I'm thinking... I just read that back to myself and I understand what I mean but you probally won't... I just want to die.. I've tried so many times to do it but everytime I wake up... I haven't tried recently because of my dad dying I feel it would hurt too many people to take my own life but.. I don't think I can handle just existing and not living. I had a reasonably good day no1 upset me and I even laughed a little.. but I come home and my brain goes on over drive there is so much going on in my head that I don't even know what I'm thinking but I know its there! :cry: Someone please tell me I'm not the only one?!