i've tried therapy and everything. the one time i told a councilor about my suicidal tendencies, they called my parents and then my parents called the cops. they wanted me committed to a mental hospital. the only vent i have is music. i do lead vocals for an extreme metal band, but i just doesn't help anymore.
she blames me because i was the "accident". my parents have a video of my mother telling my father she is pregnant. his response was "f***. i thought we were getting a new car." i've been the black sheep of my family most of my life. i was abused when i was around 7 years old and i started acting out and getting into trouble. we lived in a small town and i was considered the "bad kid". so my family pretty much treated me horribly after that. as "punishment" i guess.