Over a week ago i posted:
http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?119894-can-not-and-will-not-do-this-anymore
things just got worse; i went away for a few days and tried to sort myself out and it didnt work and it didnt help at all; so the crisis team said i had to see them or they were going to discharge me; this is after i said to my care coordinator and the crisis team that i was still feeling so awful.
i felt awful and started to overdose on thursday morning; i saw the doctor and one crisis team member and i said i had started to overdose and felt awful; i had been given a leaflet on self harm the week before and the dr asked whether i found it useful and i explained that a leaflet was not going to makeme feel better as i had so many issues and if it was as easy as a website i would've been able to sort it myself, he went mad as he made the leaflet and that i didnt understand what i was talking about and that i was overreacting on some abandonment issues that i clearly had; i have bpd so i started to cry and say i was severly suicidal, had started overdosing and couldnt be discharged from the team as i was clearly desperate. He then said i had to follow rules in order to be able to be in touch with the crisis team etc and i explained that was fine but when i feel as awful as i do rules are no good to me but instead i need help and sorry i am an inconviance if i dont answer the phone immediately as i am trying to go work 70/80 hours a week and he shouted and said even though i was suicidal he wanted the meeting stopping there and didnt want anymore conversations with me. Absolutely sobbing i said even though i'm overdosing you are saying i can be discharged and he said yes you're out of our care.
He then said he was done and was leaving; i said i needed to drive to needed 15 mins to get myself together and he said no leave; if you want to do that go outside.
I didnt know what to say i just cried; i got in touch with my care coordinator who said she was on a course so texted saying if i needed an appointment email my availability next week; i said i need help i'm overdosing and she just responded saying well she has offered an appointment.
So now in the past 3 days ive taken over <edit moderator total eclipse method> feel awful and this all could've been stopped i said i needed to be in hospital, i said i needed help and noone cared; people who are paid to help and care didnt help; they shouted and made me feel worse.
I cannot do this at all; i'm so stuck and it is all a mess and i feel so so awful too;
i dont know anymore
http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?119894-can-not-and-will-not-do-this-anymore
things just got worse; i went away for a few days and tried to sort myself out and it didnt work and it didnt help at all; so the crisis team said i had to see them or they were going to discharge me; this is after i said to my care coordinator and the crisis team that i was still feeling so awful.
i felt awful and started to overdose on thursday morning; i saw the doctor and one crisis team member and i said i had started to overdose and felt awful; i had been given a leaflet on self harm the week before and the dr asked whether i found it useful and i explained that a leaflet was not going to makeme feel better as i had so many issues and if it was as easy as a website i would've been able to sort it myself, he went mad as he made the leaflet and that i didnt understand what i was talking about and that i was overreacting on some abandonment issues that i clearly had; i have bpd so i started to cry and say i was severly suicidal, had started overdosing and couldnt be discharged from the team as i was clearly desperate. He then said i had to follow rules in order to be able to be in touch with the crisis team etc and i explained that was fine but when i feel as awful as i do rules are no good to me but instead i need help and sorry i am an inconviance if i dont answer the phone immediately as i am trying to go work 70/80 hours a week and he shouted and said even though i was suicidal he wanted the meeting stopping there and didnt want anymore conversations with me. Absolutely sobbing i said even though i'm overdosing you are saying i can be discharged and he said yes you're out of our care.
He then said he was done and was leaving; i said i needed to drive to needed 15 mins to get myself together and he said no leave; if you want to do that go outside.
I didnt know what to say i just cried; i got in touch with my care coordinator who said she was on a course so texted saying if i needed an appointment email my availability next week; i said i need help i'm overdosing and she just responded saying well she has offered an appointment.
So now in the past 3 days ive taken over <edit moderator total eclipse method> feel awful and this all could've been stopped i said i needed to be in hospital, i said i needed help and noone cared; people who are paid to help and care didnt help; they shouted and made me feel worse.
I cannot do this at all; i'm so stuck and it is all a mess and i feel so so awful too;
i dont know anymore
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