I know I'm new and haven't posted anywhere yet, I hope no one minds me posting here... I feel like I'm stuck. I want to run away or not exist. I want to die. My partner and my team know vaguely how I'm feeling but there's nothing they can do. I have a hundred questions that I can't ask anyone because I don't want to end up in hospital. They just go through my mind all the time and I'm losing out on sleep and feel so isolated. I'm not typing these because I want encouragement or even answers, I just want to be heard. If I'm breaking any rules please delete this ASAP. Mod Edit, WildCherry> I live in a small village. There's nowhere to hide. Nowhere to run. I don't know what to do. I feel so desperate, so alone and so very afraid. I'm sorry if I've upset anyone. I think about this all the time and things have set me back. I've had responsibilities to fill, visitors to entertain and financial implications against me. I have to get through the weekend now but then what? Then what?