I dont know

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by SirenDevil, Jan 11, 2007.

  1. SirenDevil

    SirenDevil Active Member

    This isnt really a yelling thing. It could probably go under the suicidal feelings thing, but whatever. The title really explains it all. I just dont know. I keep thinking "I cant do this anymore", but I just tell myself everything will be better later. But it doesnt get better. Heh. Ya. I guess I sound like some idiot whining. Thats how I feel. Im not cripled. Im for the most part healthy. Im not handicapped. I dont live on the street. Like...I should feel so lucky to be blessed by not having any of those issues. Yet even though Im grateful, Im not happy. Why should I get to complain? My life isnt as bad as anything I mentioned. My brain just doesnt seem to get that. So ya. Things keep getting worse and its so fucking hard because each time it happens I tell myself I can handle it, but I dont know anymore. Right now, Im not so sure. I'll probably just go to bed and keep this cycle going forever. Not really a big deal. I dont even know why Im posting this. It doesnt even matter. If no one replies, Im going to feel ignored, but if people reply, I will feel like such an idiot for posting this. I AM an idiot for posting this. I guess you cant ever be happy when all you want from life are opposites. Everything is an opposite anyway. It just doesnt matter. It just doesnt.
  2. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Hun, i dunno what to say really but i don't consider you an idiot what so ever! you an amazing person and i care for you alot!!

    Im here for you if you ever wanna talk.

    Love ya lots,

    Vikki x