I've known this person for around a year and a half now. We both like each other but we're always talking around "dating" each other. We'll get mad at each other because we're not "dating", and vice versa. I know we aren't dating because I'm the one holding back. The reason why I don't want to date him is because, well, I'm suicidcal. I don't think he'll like me anymore if I show him who I am as a person. Everyday I have these scenarios playing in my mind about us and it drives me crazy how much I think about him. But I know that with my depression we won't be happy together. I want to save him the disappointment.