so, i haven't been around here in a while, wanted to see if i could cope without coming here. to be honest, i didn't miss the place too much, just the people. but, this place isn't the same as it was when i first came here. it was way better. i sound like some old fogey now ranting about 'back in my day'. i'm not even that old. i don't know anymore. things just aren't worth it. i can't control anything any more. asides from cutting, but i know i'll lose control of it again sooner or later like i did last time. or i'll get caught. of course, i won't be able to stop until then either. life's just a piece of shit, and that is that.