I don't know what's happening to me. I suffer from borderline and depression, so I'm always fucked up in some way. Right now I'm feeling so suicidal.. I was reading about a guy from Brazil who killed himself - Vinicius, a.k.a. Yoñlu - and listening to his music and I started thinking, why not? I could do it right now, but I don't know how. I tried it a couple days ago taking too many pills - XXXXX - but it didn't work. I have this huge problem with self harm and my body is full of scars. It's been two days now without cutting but I can't stand it anymore, I need serious help. Nobody helps me. I'm in love with a depressed guy and we broke up but we still love each other - we're just too fucked up to go on. And my family doesn't help at all... I can't talk to anyone. My best friend is always trying to help me but he just doesn't understand. He's the only one I talk about things. I don't even know why I'm posting here.. it's just that I saw this link and I'm trying to be okay.. And I need HELP. PS I'm sorry if there's any grammar error or something - I'm brazilian, so I don't know english this well PS2 If something's wrong about my post, just please let me know and I'll try to fix it. I'm new here and I don't really know the rules.