I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I should call and apolagize to my worker, and my husband. I don't know why I feel like maybe they deserve an apolagy. I don't know what to do today. I am in town and stuck at the library and feel that I am supposed to be somewhere but don't know where. I feel foggy and like I am just going to end up wandering around town, not quite sure what I am supposed to do. I feel really confused about everything. I am still very low and feel very out of control. I just can't get over the feeling that I am supposed to be some where. I feel like walking down to the lake maybe but sort of feel like I would just keep on walking right off the peir. I feel very lost, and very confused and now I am just rambling.