I don't know what my problem is. I am sitting here all alone.My sister is out of town and my daughter and grandaughter just left to go spend the night at there cousins house. I am actually feeling scared. Nothing has happened to cause this feeling. My head is spinning, I can feel the blood rushing thru my body, I am afraid to go to bed because of the dreams. Especially one that I have every now and then. That one scares the shit out of me I come clean out of bed and on to my feet. I am 51 years old and shouldn't have these kind of thoughts. And I shouldn't be afraid of any thing. I relate to everyones posts about wanting to end it. I useually keep control over my suicidal thoughts or they will overcome me. Right now I am wanting to cut to let the fear out. I don't like this.Well I am going to go to bed and see what happens. I will be lucky if I make it for an hour.The fear has my mind racing like a train.Why is this happening???