I don't pity myself, I hate myself. I don't have any actual problems in my life, but I still can't handle it. I am too weak to even handle high school, much less college or a job. It's incredibly pathetic. I cannot even manage to keep a coherent life together. If I ever met myself, I'd beat the shit out of me on principal alone. When I hate other people, I can just leave and get away from them. But I hate myself, so that's not an option. I can't wait to die. I hope it's painful.