but right now i have to i dont no what to say and i cant find any words to start a proper thread..so i expect no replies , how can you reply to something that consists of nothing. I JUST DONT NO WHAT TO SAY WHY CANT I EVEN THINK OF A WAY TO GET HELP? IM SO THICK and worthless. i cant think of what to type on here, so im typing to myself. i cant even make myself heard anymore. i cant reach out all i can do is churn everything over in my mind. i'm proberly making a FUSS about nothing ... i feel so shite. i apologise for the language but.. its the only word. Therapy on thursday. [ again again again ] If i dont let all this out im going to E-X-P-L-O-D-E why do i always stay like this? and get WORSE.? sorry.That Was Uncalled For. All i can do is sit here and cry and bleed and wish it was over. that is all i can do. What a mess? im not in immediate danger tonight, so please dont worry. My mind just cant do this anymore. why should i have to?