My boyfriend and I, a gay couple, have been together for 2 years. We would like to eventually marry in the future, years from now, when we're both settled and have the ability, too. He's planning on joining the air force, though. I don't know how to feel. I'm glad he's following his dream, but... I feel depressed again. I feel worthless again. I used to cut and I feel like doing that again. It's the only thing I can control. I'm trying to enjoy my time with him, but all I keep thinking of is him leaving or us ending in tragedy because of the terms in the military. Advice?