I don't really wanna die but am running out of alternatives!!

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by 1234567890, Jan 9, 2012.

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  1. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    *sighs* I have felt suicidal and depressed combined on two occasions, got ptsd on one of these occasions and just plain depression on one time. all this happened between the ages of 14-18. im 18 and even tho i am not depressed atm i am seriously considering suicide as i cant get over my shitty childhood caused by traumatic experiences at school or how i was betrayed just a few months back by one of my best friends. i guess i haven't done anything ever(except for planning an attempt once) cos i have a lot of specialist objects that no-one seems to know how to care of, cos i'm still very hopeful(not sure if its a good thing) and cos i had some alternatives to suicide. now those alternatives are gone and i'm stuck.. i dunno what to do...
     
  2. Lone_walker

    Lone_walker Well-Known Member

    What were these alternatives may I ask?
     
  3. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    A life in another country, retreating to the virtual world and sealing myself in(i mean literally, like locking myself in the house and turning off eveything other than mmorpg's) such as real life news feeds etc and being a hermit.
     
  4. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Hi there and welcome!

    First of all, I'm not sure what would be the best way for you to approach the root of your difficulties regarding trauma, but I think getting a different opinion from someone trained to help people deal with depression, PTSD, etc., could be something beneficial for you. Anyways, let me know what you think....I'm no expert, but that may be something you're willing to look into. Lastly, I am so sorry that your childhood is causing you such great distress, and I hope you gain something from being on this site. Take care! :hug:

    Alex
     
  5. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    it was trained ppl who diagnosed me....!!! i took myself off off meds just like that...
     
  6. LillMy8989

    LillMy8989 Well-Known Member

    See forward and turn into religion, a way to talk to someone that really cares for you and understands you, for free!
    Trust me, priests are very believing and could never do something like leaving you for example, I have find myself but the road is my undone thing still.
     
  7. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    ok the religon thing is completely random and won't help much tbh sorry.
     
  8. LillMy8989

    LillMy8989 Well-Known Member

    You think? Someway to tell the truth without anyones disbelieve behavior, I would go for it... Wheres your goal?
     
  9. LillMy8989

    LillMy8989 Well-Known Member

    You wanna live you just go for it, or at least try...it wont anybody but see the light, light Is bright, as I am... go church religion, they wants your help and they will help you, just bonus.
     
  10. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    i guess i could try and get my alternatives back? will that work?
     
  11. 1234567890

    1234567890 Member

    Just a note- I am not depressed or PTSD at all atm. I just want to die.
     
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