I admit that I've never had a satisfying life to any real degree. In fact, it's been what I'd call a very "lonely" journey, or at least it appears so, because of the arrangement of matter in my brain. I just can't decide whether I want to stagnate and waste away or end my life quickly. There is no hope and I don't see a better future for myself or anyone else for that matter. I've just grown tired of expending energy to survive and scarcely get to work as it is. This world is filled with nothing but vacuous, self-interested DNA replicating assholes and I want to stamp my train ticket off soon.