This is the email from my friend: "You need to find a job. Staying home all the time has ruined you. Get the horses up to *****, then move close to a bigger city. Get a job so you can get your DL and buy a used truck. Then go back to shoeing. You made good money from that and you are good at it. If your back won't take the bending over, try training at people's places until you can afford your own place. " I am trying to get into a neuro doctor. I am positive I have MS. The having one side of my scalp go numb finally sent me searching the web. I can't do any of the things I use to. On a good day I can walk 1-1.5 miles or I can ride slowly for 20-40 minutes but I cannot do both. I use to shoe 6-10 horses a day and/or trim up to 30. Now it takes me 2 days to do one of ours that stand well. I cannot even bend under a tree branch. I have no balance and if the horse moves wrong I am pulling on their mouth, something I have never done. I sold "my horse" because I could no longer ride him. The new owners keep saying how "smooth" he is yet he was too rough for my back to handle. I tried to ride the other day and my legs went into spasms. There are days when I cannot walk without a cane. I stopped driving because I cannot feel my legs or lift my right leg. I feel my friend is correct. My daughter would have an easier life without me. As soon as my grandson is in daycare I will not be needed at all.