HI
I feel my life serves absolutely no purpose at all, and sure a few ppl will miss me if i commit the act but in the greater scheme of things i think they would be better of without me.
The whole world is fighting against me, in every conceivable way. i graduated grad school last year in january from a top notch university with good grades but ever since i have been stuggling to find a ny kind of employment. I have done a few internships so i got the relevant experience now but to no avail. I live in Sweden which has a booming economy atm.
My depression goes a lot deeper than that though, i lost my mom 2 years ago and have felt incrediblu lost eversince. I have a lot of responsibility in the sense that i provide a lot of emotional support for my yojunger brother and sister. I am afraid that if i commit the act he would take it very heavy and perhaps hurt himself. Which i feel would be a shame sine he has the preconditions to make it biug in this life.
I feel that my own situation cant light up and i feel there comes a point when it's time to give up. I believe that i should be given some credit as for taking tis step as i fill no function in life at all.
I moved in to an apartment last week just for the purpose of killing myself but its not going well att all, tried <edit moderator total eclipse method> as well as using an <edit moderator total eclipse method> None of them worked...... but i just want it all to end. NOW
I feel my life serves absolutely no purpose at all, and sure a few ppl will miss me if i commit the act but in the greater scheme of things i think they would be better of without me.
The whole world is fighting against me, in every conceivable way. i graduated grad school last year in january from a top notch university with good grades but ever since i have been stuggling to find a ny kind of employment. I have done a few internships so i got the relevant experience now but to no avail. I live in Sweden which has a booming economy atm.
My depression goes a lot deeper than that though, i lost my mom 2 years ago and have felt incrediblu lost eversince. I have a lot of responsibility in the sense that i provide a lot of emotional support for my yojunger brother and sister. I am afraid that if i commit the act he would take it very heavy and perhaps hurt himself. Which i feel would be a shame sine he has the preconditions to make it biug in this life.
I feel that my own situation cant light up and i feel there comes a point when it's time to give up. I believe that i should be given some credit as for taking tis step as i fill no function in life at all.
I moved in to an apartment last week just for the purpose of killing myself but its not going well att all, tried <edit moderator total eclipse method> as well as using an <edit moderator total eclipse method> None of them worked...... but i just want it all to end. NOW
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