I Have been in a pretty deep hole of despair for about a year and a half now. I attempted suicide last december and was almost successful had i not thrashed and regained consciousness. I haven't worked a steady job since 3/2019 despite countless interviews and applications. I found i will not be able to conceive a child, my husband has seeking the affections of another woman and gave me divorce papers ( 11+ years together) my mothers cancer returned and is more aggressive, i have no friends anymore because the only one that i actually trusted died unexpectedly. i have made a plan b but haven't put it into motion yet. i don't enjoy any activity anymore unless it's sleeping.
I am so sorry to hear all that you've gone through. Nobody should be hit by all that, especially at once
My best friend died unexpectedly 2 years ago so I really hear you on that, and my brother is out of work for almost two years (he has been doing deliveries for amazon but formerly held a managerial position so it has been hard on his confidence).
I do have some suggestions for you. I personally found it helpful working for a temp agency and it helped me secure a permanent job. Also many places hire christmas help although obviously it's not a great time for working in retail or such.
The thing is that most of the things you describe are temporary although it may not feel like it. Frankly if your husband is cheating, he's not worth it. That is really hard that you've been together 11+ years and he would do that.
It sounds like you are still a young woman and there is hope. It seems like maybe there is a small positive to some of the big negatives in your life. Maybe being out of work gives you more time to spend with your mother while she is sick? Maybe not being able to have a child means you didn't have one with your husband and you won't have to endure joint custody. You can adopt one day if you are in a situation where you wish to. Consult a lawyer as you may be eligible for spousal support given your situation with your unemployment (don't be quick to say "I don't want anything from him" as you may need the financial support if you are unable to find work).
There are many non-medication things that may help depression, stress and anxiety. I encourage you to research these (some of them help me and I will star these).
*exercise (cardio) - sweating from exercise contains toxins released by the body and is chemically different from sweating from heat.
- light therapy (exacerbated my rosacea but friends have benefitted from it)
- Cognitive behavioral therapy
* B vitamin "stress plex" - B vitamin supplement with the B vitamins in the proportion they are absorbed by the body (not the B-50 or B-100). Often has vitamin C as well and sometimes other supplements
* Calcium + magnesium
- Fish oil or flax seeds
- N-acetylcysteine (a supplement recommended by my psychiatrist that I haven't tried yet, for anxiety)
-*CBD and/or THC (marijuana. It's legal where I live and the 1:1 THC/CBD oil helps me a lot
- meditation/yoga/tai chi (I like tai chi best)
*epsom salt bath for anxiety (magnesium absorbs through the skin)
By no means an exhaustive list
Big hugs to you. Stick around and you will make friends here