No family or friends. I spend my days isolated and in pain from chronic illness. I have no idea why I have continued on for so long. No after effects for me. I honestly wish I had family but I don't.. There is nothing to keep me in this world. I wish for those of you with family and friends and who have their health to try to fight as much as you can against these thoughts because YOU have a fighting chance. I am a hopeless case on the other hand.