My mom encouraged me to call a abuse hotline today after I spoke with her this morning. I guess she felt it would be difficult if something came of it and she was trying to work on the case - stickly profession point of view I think.. The other day my husband done something that alarmed me. He never done something that bad before. I wasnt afraid or anything I was just very dissapointed, upset, ashamed, worried, ect. My son had took his milk crate into the kicthen, opened the cabnet, and climbed on the crate to get some food from the cabnet. My husband jumped up, started screaming, hurried into the kitchen, grabbed my son by the arm, and yanked him off the milk crate. My mind may of been playing tricks on me but I swore I saw my baby hit the floor.. My baby ran to me. Screaming his head off of course and climbed up on my lap. I comforted him. I just held him close to me for the longest time.. Eventually he was calm and went about his day (the baby I mean). I became enraged at my husband but I couldnt do anything about it. Today it became this huge fight and I called the abuse hotline.. The woman I spoke with said he has the typical abuser personality.. He admits to doing the bad things then changes his mind saying that Im crazy, Im dilusion, I made it up and he didnt do it only to change his mind back a little later. He will offer to call the doctors, our case worker, go to the ER and then backs down. He cancels appointments that have been set up for him.. He yells and cusses at me. He claims hes just cussing and its not aimed at me but it is. Hes raised his hand to hit me a few times but only swung at me once. I moved and his fist hit one of the kitchen cabnets.. I dont think hes a abuser though as this behavior wasnt there at first..We have been together almost six years and lived together over a year with no problems..He was perfectly respectful, loving, caring, sensative, honest, sweet, all that stuff. Then he changed.. He cheated on me, couldnt work anymore because the doctors found a sever problem, we had this bloody cps case opened against us, I think those are whats causing this.. I do believe he could have BPD but Im not sure.. Maybe Im to blame.. I have yelled at him and even hit him.. Maybe hes just treating me like he thinks I treat him.. By why drag our son into it? ... Sorry, I just wanted to get it off my chest and I thought this would be the place to do it..