ive been having severe panic attacks for the last few months and I don't think I can do it anymore. If this is my life it's a life I don't want. I am a financial and emotional burden on my friends and family. I do t see this ever getting better. I constantly feel like I'm dying so I might as well go ahead and do it for real. There are so many "brave" people out the living with mental illness but I'm not one of them.