I was doing so well just a few hours ago, i dont know where this is hitting me from. I need the things i cant seem to get. I need my mothers love, i need the connection that a mother and daughter would have had 6 years ago, when a child is only 8 or 9. i still need that. i never even got a chance at it. and now all i can get is all the painful words running around and around again in my head, burning holes in my brain. I cant stand it anymore, i cant bear it. the painful words are so haunting, and so many spoken.... so many even today... i cant stop my tears anymore, and i cant find a reason to. i cant find a reason to live. I need a mother, the one thing i havent and never will have.