I don't think i ever would.. but i need relief...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by OneLastHope, Apr 23, 2009.

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  1. OneLastHope

    OneLastHope New Member

    My life... is really good... but the really bad seems overwhelming. lets start out with the good. I'm one of the top javelin throwers in my state, i have a decent job, I'm engaged, a loving family, a roof to live under and have decent meals and several great friends...


    I am over a grand in debt, my credit score is terrible, i failed high school, i hate my job, it feels like i there is never anything fun, or any me time, it feels like whatever i do i fail, i feel like i'm never good enough... and to top it all off, my fiance is always bitchy to me and hypocritical, she acts like a princess and thinks she is one, smartass, and she just adds a million pounds to the stress, but we are very good to each other and we love eachother alot. i go through every day feeling depressed and alone, when im not alone at all... there is several bad things i didn't mention... but every day it feels like it would be easier just NOT being here.... im so sick of my life... and i have been since i was 14.... im now 18 1/2....
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Being in debt sucks. As soon as I went to college, I got into debt, and it took me a while to pull myself out. But I did it, and so can you. It takes time; it won't happen right away. You just have to try and work toward paying things off a little at a time.

    I'm confused about your fiancee. You said that you're always good to each other, but that she's bitchy, hypocritical, and adds to your stress. I guess I'm having a hard time connecting the two.

    Have you thought about trying to get your GED so that you'll basically have a high school diploma?
  3. OneLastHope

    OneLastHope New Member

    Yea, the debt just sucks, it feels like im sinking deeper and deeper, and what i mean is for the most part, we are AWESOME until something bothers her, then we end up fighting or something, and here is an exp: we were hanging out and i texted my friend back, she got angry and said put your phone away this is us time... yet 10 minutes later she is playing a game on her phone... its like she has no mutual respect for her rules. and she gets angry about so many things she shouldn't or when i do nothing wrong.

    and yea i just found out the other day i failed high school.... so im gunna get my ged soon, but from what im told ged's are pathetic to employers...

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  4. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Have you thought about joining the military?? They make you grow up quick..Everything is taken care of: food, shelter, doctors, dentists, It's all taken care of by uncle sam..
    They will help you get your diploma and you can get guarantees and bonuses for signing up..Then you can take care of your debt..Plus you get to travel and your not stuck in your home town the rest of your life..Not to mention the pride you feel in your self for graduating boot camp.. They also will teach you a trade you can use when you get out..
    Just food for thought; If I had it todo all over again I would have stayed in and made a carrier out of it..
  5. Dubstepper

    Dubstepper Staff Alumni

    yeah, i understand the debt thing. im 15 grand in the pit. and to tack onto what the last guy said, if i stayed in the AF i woulda made it a career
  6. OneLastHope

    OneLastHope New Member

    I have thought of military, but leaving my girl like that, and having her worry about me every day wondering if im ok, being away for 6 months at a time :S. i can't do that to her.
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