I don't have any friends. I push people away, I don't know how to be social and make friends. I sometimes go days without any communication with anyone, besides family. My family is just sick of me. They worry because they know I'm alone and don't have any reason to live. I think it's a matter of my family thinking that it's going to happen..they just dont know when. I've been crying since I woke up. I don't know what to do. I'm scared of being with myself. I hate myself.