I'm in high school now, and obviously it's going to suck because that's what adolescence is. But I keep thinking, wondering if the struggle will really be worth it. I don't think I could be much happier than what I've experienced in previous years. There's so much bullshit in the world, and it just depresses me when I think about it. But if I don't think about it, I feel like a selfish, ignorant person. Either way, it seems inevitable that I'm just lame. Kind of worthless and pathetic. Are people meant to be this way? Does it change? I feel like even if I reach a new perspective, the truth is still there. I'm wasting human resources, sad even though there are people who are ACTUALLY suffering, and I feel really helpless to change it. I think it's actually society and the people that have been molded so perfectly to fit into it that pisses me off.