I do drugs, not the bad type... nothing illegal. Spice, Summer Doves, Kratom, and Salvia mainly. I'm not an addict, I try to only do somthing once every 2 weeks, but recetly is't been more like twice a week. I've always had the view that cos it's not illegal, it's not a problem. But I'm not sure thats true. Kratom (An opiod) is very addictive, and the first time Susan had Spice, she went uncontious on me. Even with these possible problems with the stuff, we always figured we were fine, we tried never to do it alone, and tried to restric how often we did it. But with Susan in hospital, I've started on my own, and a lot more often. I'm worried I'm gonna end up like my Mum. My Mum is an alcoholic, she has been for as long as I can remember. When she met her current partner Iain, she was ok for a bit, but now she's drinking again. I hate her when she's drunk, it's pathetic. When I was a bit younger I used to get up early and take out the trash so she woulden't know how much she'd had, now I just don't give care enouth. I don't want to get as a ddicted to the stuff I'm on, as she is to alcohol. I have an addictive personalitly, I became "addicted" to smoking pretty easily, and found coming off my Diazapam to be absolute hell. I don't wanna stop with this stuff, it's nice, but I don't wanna get fucked up by it. I don't know where I'm going here, so I'll stop typing.