i am so sick of being lied to and having people stab me in the back. I dont trust anyone right now. I nnever learn. for once i wish someone would stab me in the heart instead of the back at least then id have my reason. im so so tired of hurting and covering it up like its nothing. it kills me...and it is killing me. not a second goes by where im not fighting myself over whether i should live or die.