When people say it's selfish to kill yourself. I'm 15 and I have tried to seek help. I was taken out of school six months ago. Before I was depressed alot and was kept inside the house because no one lived near me and my parents had no money to go anywhere. So I stayed in the house for 3 years, trying to keep myself together. Even though I knew that lonliness was becoming a bigger issue each day. My dad then told me that we were to move again and this time I had hope. When we arrived, I went to school for two week, But we we're to move again, next week. This was 3 months ago. Moving to this place, I placed my hope to find friends. But my mum is taking her time to get the money for us to move, so it seems like we're stuck here for quiet a while. I tried deal with my depression for nearly 3 and a half years. It's getting to me and it doesn't help that my family isn't doing anything to help me. I told a few of my friends that I know from previous moves online and they don't know what to say. I believe they won't miss me if I died, afterall i'm not that important to them. I tried to hang on for a long time. Even if I was to get friends, I don't think i'll become the person I once was. I have nearly forgotten to have a proper conversation since I hardly talk to my dad and if I told them I was suisidal, i'm sure they will think i'm a burden of some sort just like everyone thinks. There is truely no one to help me and I can't get out. I tried councelling in my old school but that never worked. It seems like suisidal is the answer and to people who says suisidal ain't the answer, HOW DO YOU KNOW. You obviously haven't tried it. I just wish I can have a hobbie of some sort but i'm not aloud out. Just don't know what to do.