It's all I want. I want to die. Life is definitely not worth living. At least mine is not.
I wanted to die for like 25 years now and I I still haven't made a true suicide attempt.
Why?
Like I once went to walk on the railroad tracks with the intention of laying in front of a train, but I turned back.
I was listening to Dark side of the moon, and it just seemed dumb to go trough with it.
I am on a leave of absence from work, but I know someday I will have to go back. If not to that job then another.
I can push myself into working, but it always requires me pushing myself and I get tired. Eventually I can't push myself anymore and I have to go back to the doctors.
It's just too much, I can't do it constantly. I prefer to die.
And I don't see myself on Social Assistance, trying to find 5 cents so I can buy bread.
I don't see any options that are reasonable.
I wanted to die for like 25 years now and I I still haven't made a true suicide attempt.
Why?
Like I once went to walk on the railroad tracks with the intention of laying in front of a train, but I turned back.
I was listening to Dark side of the moon, and it just seemed dumb to go trough with it.
I am on a leave of absence from work, but I know someday I will have to go back. If not to that job then another.
I can push myself into working, but it always requires me pushing myself and I get tired. Eventually I can't push myself anymore and I have to go back to the doctors.
It's just too much, I can't do it constantly. I prefer to die.
And I don't see myself on Social Assistance, trying to find 5 cents so I can buy bread.
I don't see any options that are reasonable.