I really can't fathom why I keep having these horrendous thoughts. I mean, I'm getting married, I'm having a little baby boy due in October, I have a loving supporting family, a Fiance that supports me, loving pets that keep wonderful company, a steady home, nice things... and all I can really think about is tying a rope around my neck and jumping off a building or sticking a gun in my mouth and blowing my face off, or killing something to help ease my anger and anxiety. I don't know who to go to or how to make it go away. I've tried all the home remedies I can to fix my depression, from exercising to trying to talk to someone close to me to cleaning excessivly or eating too much ice cream lol. No one seems to take it seriously because I seemingly have a perfect life! I don't know what to do, I feel trapped and alone and lost and angry. I'm not doing very well right now at all.