I'm fairly new here, and have never self harmed. I have posted in other forum areas and was just looking through some of the posts, you know like you do, looking for a topic that I could identify with, or one where I thought I might be able to offer some sort of comfort or help. Then I wander into this section. I found it so heart breaking to read, I had to stop after a couple of posts. If I could take you all in, give you a big hug and all the support and understanding you need I would, but thats just not possible. I have no concept of what it is that drives you to do this, which is odd, being though I have come close to ending my own life. PLEASE: Help me understand ! What it is that drives you to do this. What does it mean to you. Why does it help. It's just such a forgien concept to me that so many young people feel the need to hurt them selves, I need to understand, so even if its in a very very small way, I might be able to help some one, some palce, some day. My heart really does go out to you all.