I'm really new here, and I'm not doing well. I'm really tired of hurting like this. I go to bed in pain and I wake-up in pain. I can't even cry. I have dreams where I'm crying and I feel the anguish but I can't even weep when I wake-up. It's very painful. I want it to stop. I want to not wake-up. I don't understand the purpose of being in this agony. It seems pointless to continue like this.