I can't deal with people being nice to me, lately. I want them to yell at me and call me names and tell me how much they hate me - that would make it so much better. I do appreciate the effort, of course. I'm thankful for their kindness. Somehow though, I've got a bit of an itching desire to be disliked, put down, and told that I'm worthless. It's sick. I don't understand.