Well, Ive been taking Anti depressents for almost 8 months now and I just dont understand how my life isn't better. It depresses me even more to realize these pills aren't making me happy. I find it hard to believe anything will anymore. I just dont understand why even subscribe me to this shit if it isn't helping. I want to pretend it does but the pain is still there, the inching pain of hopelessness consumes me every night. I can't even sleep at night, because I feel so lonely. Every friend I thought I knew are just a bunch of assholes who only care about themselves except one. Is this how I have to live life? Is this what I get for wanting more? Am i supposed to feel this hurt til i get used to it? I just don't understand. sorry for the random rant, I just dont know anymore, Im just sick and tired of waiting for the relief support to show up like it never does. all just a bunch of waste of emotions.