I haven't cut for about a week now, but the urge wont go away. I can't get over it, I can't make it stop. I just want to force the blade down through flesh and sinew until the cold steel meets an artery and ends this. I have t draw blood, doesn't that make sense? But I have to, I just, I just have to draw blood, I have to draw blood. This, this doesn't make any sense, I don't understand, why can't I stop??