You have that feeling that you're not where you want or should be in life. Where you know, if only that one small thing had happened in the past your life would be completely different. I hate it. I've been dying inside with despair. And going to the doctor doesn't help, because all I can think is "I shouldn't be here." And seeing the doctor, all I can think is "I was supposed to be in your shoes." But supposed to isn't what happened. And I think it's amazing how one small tiny thing in your life can completely change your lifestyle, who you are, how you think, what you do, and the person you become. Destiny has lead me at this time to create this topic. I don't want to be here.