Last year something happen. i know this might sound small but i got into a fight and 'lost'. ever since that day i have been tormented at school about it. people say smart comments. i was afraid to show my face for a while. i also move school because i couldnt take it. i thought about killing myself shortly after that. its been over a year and people still bring it up in arguments or just recently on my Myspace. I have a Truth Box where people can say thing about me anonymously. I dont know who it was but i didnt like how they said i was dumb and got beaten up. this was 3 months ago and im still hurting because of this. i dont want them to have the pleasure of knowing that im suffering but i am and i dont know what to do. i use to take medicine and drinking takes away the pain but im 19 so its hard to get. When debating whether or not suicide is a good idea, i think about my family how they bring it up too me and now they really dont pay me any attention. My mom and i fight all day everyday and she is all i have contact with. I keep telling myself that they will die before i do because i dont want them to win. its hard and i probably wont sleep tonite from hurt and anger. i tired of this and i want it to stop. talking to a professional doesnt help because they dont understand. maybe someone on here will.