Spoiler: Talk about suicide and suicide plan
I don't want to do this anymore. The struggles are too much and I'm too messed up. Things will never get better for me. If it weren't for the fact that my mother needs my help right now, I'd give in to the urges tonight. All my pain would go away tonight. But, I love her. I don't want to hurt her. And, she needs me. The pain just doesn't go away. How long can I live for someone else? Things are so bad...it's all I think about now. Sorry for writing this. I've tried to be as general as possible so that I don't trigger someone. I just need to get this out. I don't want to be here anymore. Life is just too hard all the time. This is my 2nd post today. I'm sorry for whining...
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