This is my first post, I have had some recent events happen that have made me lose all desire for life that I had to start with. My husband just told me that he doesn't love me, he never did love me and he wants a divorce. He is the love of my life I love him more than anything. He cheated on me and I took him back stupid as it was, no one will be able to put up with him, we were a perfect match. He claims he still wants to see me and talk to me because he "loves me as a person just not as a wife". I haven't done anything wrong, I changed my work schedule because he said that he didn't get to see me enough, and he still is leaving me. We had to fight very hard for our house and we have done a lot of work on it. I now have to give up the house that I wanted so bad, I am going to have to move from the town I was born and raised in because It is embarrassing to me that I am being left and I don't want to run into anyone I know because I don't want to have to answer questions about what is going on, I don't want to have to lie and say that I am doing okay because I'm not! I have to quit my job that I have worked at for 4 years and all the people there that I love because this is so embarrassing to me. I feel worthless and I already had self-esteem issues and now I feel like no one will ever love me the way I love. I don't ever want to get married again because I am afraid that this will happen to me again. I don't know what to do I have nothing to look forward to and I just want to die. I tried to commit suicide and failed, I don't want anyone to know that I am suicidal because it is shameful for me and I am afraid that they will put me in a mental hospital. I am already on anti-depressants and nothing is helping me anymore. I don't have close friends because I lost them all to him. I feel like I am being tortured for his mistakes! I don't know what to do!